So long..

But not goodbye... it's just been so long since I last wrote on here.

Judah has an ear infection, I think, so it was a long night and it's turning into a long day already.

I am sad. I'm sad that summer is ending. While the heat does get overwhelming at times, I love the feel of summer. Cold hurts me. I do love the holiday season too of course, but if I had to choose between an "always hot" climate or the opposite, I would choose always hot. Not many agree with me, but that is ok.

Why is it that memories are so important to us. I want to simplify. I want less stuff in my house. But when it comes to actually getting rid of things, it's hard. Harder than it should be. And I'm better about it now than I used to be, but I still have difficulty in letting things go. My children have too many toys, and I want to change that. So I start sorting-- and those ratty dolls with crazy hair and no clothes, those are the hardest to let go. Because they were mine, once upon a time, and I love(d) them. If the doll belonged to anyone else, and I saw it in my child's room, I'm sure I wouldn't see beauty in it. I would see dirt and grime, ugly hair, etc... it would be easy to throw it into trash/transfer box. But because it was mine, I see beauty. I see love, sweetness, an awesome retro doll that should be kept. Should it be kept? WHY are memories, and things that hold memories so very important to us/me? I don't know. It's the same with pictures. I love pictures, but at the same time I don't... sometimes looking back is difficult-- should we be able to look back?

...my children are growing up too fast...

Anyways, I'm beginning the journey of simplifying yet again. It will be a never-ending journey I think, but I'm up for the challenge.