... I really need to. This whole "labor anxiety" thing has got to stop, and soon. I've done it twice before. You'd think it would get easier, at least a little tiny bit. But no. I've got progressively more anxious with each one. Last night, I woke up twice with a gasp of panic for absolutely no reason at all, besides having gone to sleep thinking about the impending moment that it sure to come. Then today in commercial law, the entire class breaks out into a 20-minute-long (at least!) discussion about CHILDBIRTH! I almost had to leave. Everyone is so astounded that I have my babies at home, "all natural"... Now I'm starting to wonder why I do it. Why don't I just go in for the epidural? The other day I watched an episode of some discovery channel or TLC birth show and the lady on it got an epidural. I couldn't believe it! She didn't even stress or strain. If my memory serves me correctly, I think she may have even had a smile on her face as she pushed out her 7-8lb child! She was a cool as a cucumber*. ... deep breath. I'll be ok.
On a happier note, or more happy... happier... hm... either way, summer school is almost done! HURRAH! Only 3 more actual "in class" days! It will be nice to be done. I think I might actually enjoy summer school slightly more than fall/spring semesters, simply because it goes by so quickly and it really hasn't been too stressful.
I'm hoping Justin will be home soon... bed is calling my name.
*I'm not sure why, but I really wanted to use that expression to describe the lady on the program. It seemed to fit her perfectly. Plus, it's just a great expression.
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