it's nothing but time and a face that you lose

"live through this, and you won't look back"
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i'm so tired today. for one thing, i'm tired of being pregnant. it's so... cumbersome? haha, i just looked that word up and this is what it said:

"1. heavy or bulky: awkward to carry or handle because of weight, size, or shape."

so apparently that is the perfect word for my current condition. *hopefully* after this baby, we can take some time off from having babies for maybe 2 or 15 years. don't take this the wrong way, i'm not miserable or hating life or anything. and i LOVE elsie and this new baby boy... but being pregnant can just be frustrating sometimes. very limiting.

monday we had someone come into class to talk about study abroad. it made me want to soooo badly. it could be possible right? justin could get a part-time job over there with some special visa and watch elsie and new baby while i'm in class, maybe i could even get a part-time or weekend job, we could travel around europe for cheap. it really would be an incredible opportunity. and while i'm dreaming, scott could even give justin 3-4 months of paid time off. yeah..... i won't think about it anymore.

this weekend i'd like to plant flowers in our front yard.